Friday, February 1, 2008

Back Cuts Only

For all those out there that have waited in line at bars we are all aware of the following situation... You get to a bar and there is a long line...approximately a 30minute wait. You are waiting and waiting. You and a friend or friends take a few more steps closer to the entrance. You see five people walking up and stop to talk with the group in front of you. They are obviously trying to cut the line. This is one of my worst pet peeves. They are usually standing in a way that they can see you and do the eye all the way to the right deal to see if you are looking at them and how you are reacting. "Should I make my move now? Will they notice that I'm cutting in front of them? Will they say something?" They avoid looking at you at all costs and awkwardly finally face forward as they inch closer and closer to their friends to blend into the line. The bigger the group trying to cut the line the more awkward it is. The absolute worst is when a huge group walks up and stands next to you as if it isn't obvious they weren't in the orginial line. Do you think you are going to cut in front of me? All I can offer is back cuts...sorry.

Last weekend I was in Hoboken waiting in line for The Shannon with my sister. Thankfully it wasn't as cold as we thought it would be. The worst part of the line was that we knew the bar wasn't full yet, they just wanted the place to look like a happening spot from the outside. There were these really obnoxious girls in front of us and not only were they talking really loud but they were yelling and screeching for no reason. "OMG i'm at a bar I'm like the best thing ever" One of the girls was wearing stur-up leggings...note to self never be caught dead in those, the last time I wore them was in 4th grade with my hot pink Limited too sweater. Anyway the highlight of my night was when the bouncer called them barnyard animals and told them to be quiet. They got mad and left the line. The sis and I took a few steps closer to the bar. Good Deal.

"If I'm too good for him, why am I not with him..."

One of my favorite movie quotes is from Clueless when Brittany Murphy's character Tye has been dumped by popular rich guy Elton. "If I'm too good for him, why am I not with him." It seems to sum up my dating life in a nutshell. I had a bf in high school, went on some dates in college without any significant relationship, and unfortunately have had those random I'm drunk, you're drunk, let's make-out at the bar situations. I'm not even going to touch upon the 4am, "what's up?" texts...that's for a whole other entry. Anyway, since my last semester of college I have dated a few guys and whenever they didn't work out the reaction was always "you are too good for them, they didn't deserve you." Yes, this may be true and brings a brief smile to my face but unfortunately doesn't make me feel any better about the I was just dumped situation.

I just got out of a relationship for about six months and as you can probably already tell...he ended it. Things hadn't been right for weeks and I probably should have ended it myself but I let it go thinking things would be ok. I guess he was feeling the same way. As he put it "I don't feel like this is going anyway." Code for...I am lazy, don't want to make an effect and would rather go drink and get stupid with my buddies than spend time with you. "OK" I said as my eyes start to fill up and my voice started to shake. YES, I started to cry. To sum up an hour conversation on the phone (way to wimp out and tell me this on the phone at 11pm, right before I was going to bed) he ended with "It's me not you and I'm still here, we will still hang out, I'll talk to you tomorrow." I said ok, goodnight and got off the phone. I cried the rest of the night and have been on and off with being upset/angry about the situation. THe on-going thoughts in my head.. "I wonder what he is doing now...what could I have done to prevent him from ending things...is he thinking about me...is there another girl...blah blah blah." I haven't texted him or contacted him which I am actually very proud of. I feel much better and if I could re-do the convo this is how it would go.. "Oh you really feel that way? Ok well no need to feel bad or pity me fucker,I can't be friends with you right now so let's not hang out and thanks for actually doing me a favor because now I can wear all my heels again." (He is 5'8 and I am 5'9)

Venturing out into the single world again...here goes nothing.